Entry for November 09, 2008

Just some thoughts I had today.

Repentance: as I repent is it necessary to admit: guilt, pain, suffering, hate, the left behind feelings, feelings of betrayal to ourselves: yes I think it is.

How about to the ones I have injured in my past, do i get to forget it all and move on because of grace??? What about my neglects in my past, grace may cover them. But what about the injured person or persons that lived in or through my neglect. Should I tell them how sorry I am and can they ever forgive me? as Christians should we be willing to step into the hurt we may have been involved with? should the injured person or persons admit there part in the repentance cycle?

Perhaps:
I am Christin now and no longer live in condemnation or guilt and someone I have injured in the past or was involved indirectly to hurt comes along and wants to address this with me. Is rehashing the past good or bad? after I have released it and live in grace, is it my duty to repent and/or admit with the harmed one my errors and do what I can to help fix the pain or is it to be forgotten and left alone and not awaken my own thoughts or change the way I think of my self? Should I worry about self, the inner I as it were, or should I open myself up to hurt and denial or worse.

I do know that living in denial is worse than the faithlessness I feel, when I am not doing what my heart leads me to do. If its something that feels wrong in the light, then it probably needs to be dealt with. What I mean is this. If its something your ashamed of admitting to yourself, or a loved one, its being hidden in the dark of your mind. As you expose the hurt, shame or any-other untoward feeling. Gods Light shines on it and exposes it for what it is. By exposing it and changing your mind, releasing it through prayer, repentance and heart felt love true healing can begin. So...

We know that things like stress, hate, love, gilt, etc. etc. etc carry a chemical in the body that builds up as we live in these feelings. Things like stomach ulcers, High Cortisol levels, High Blood Pressure, Back and Neck pains, Breathing Problems, Irritable bowel syndrome, violence in a normally calm person and so on.

Release is a vital function both chemically and spiritually. With out the release of a emotional issue or untoward though, the longer the imbalance builds up and after awhile it can appear to not have a solution... the easy fix... Perhaps this imbalance has a memory imprint that the body it self holds on to... IE: Musculoskeletal Disorders that most if not all of us carry.

Consequently:
I love you. When You truly Love. Not just someone but everyone, to see what Jesus would see in the person and find what to love. You can truly begin to heal and then its not just Healing self its healing everyone... one soul at a time.

Perhaps:
The face to face act of love and compassion, the verbalization of your pain, the acceptance of your guilt. Repentance with the family, Friends and God is in essence or symbolic of a covenant between persons in love, persons in Faith and Persons in Christ Jesus and him who we Crucified and He who God resurrected 3 days later Just cause we could not get it by our selves.

Peace.

Steele.